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Well, it's only the second week of the new semester and I am completely stressed out already.
We have such a scedule that two days a week we spend at the university about... eight hours in a row, I guess? and two days when we study for six hours and a half, which is quite hard for my lazy head as well.
I am not getting much sleep these days, either.
But the main thing is that we have such a huge list of books to read till May that sometimes I really doubt it's even possible to cope with it. I am already afraid of the summer exams.
And since we have a new Finnish teacher now our lectures have become much less fun than before (though we are finally getting to Finnish tenses, which means that hopefully I'll be able to read Finnish books soon, which I am super excited about).
I guess the main thing that helps me not to freak out is my imaginary friends and worlds of my stories, where I spend most of my time no matter what I am actually doing.
Guys, I am so immature //_____\\
So, okay. Thanks for listening xDD
We have such a scedule that two days a week we spend at the university about... eight hours in a row, I guess? and two days when we study for six hours and a half, which is quite hard for my lazy head as well.
I am not getting much sleep these days, either.
But the main thing is that we have such a huge list of books to read till May that sometimes I really doubt it's even possible to cope with it. I am already afraid of the summer exams.
And since we have a new Finnish teacher now our lectures have become much less fun than before (though we are finally getting to Finnish tenses, which means that hopefully I'll be able to read Finnish books soon, which I am super excited about).
I guess the main thing that helps me not to freak out is my imaginary friends and worlds of my stories, where I spend most of my time no matter what I am actually doing.
Guys, I am so immature //_____\\
So, okay. Thanks for listening xDD
update on everything
Hello everyone,
I haven't been here for a while, and actually I am kinda showing up just to tell you I am not dead in real life or something.
I am sorry for having vanished from your life like this, some of us used to be friends, as far as I remember, and I don't even know if these people even do use dA anymore (you can write me again if you like, I guess I'll be checking my account here for a while).
One of the reasons is that there has been a horrible lot of different things happening in my life, I guess I've been through so much during these last two years that I am vaguely surprised I am still alive and sane. My university and especial
H-hello? Does anyone hear me?
Uhm, hey, guys.
I am sorry for being silent.
I check my dA still, although not so often, and I miss you all.
I am still not through that ugly period of my life, but at least I feel that, slowly, I am getting somewhere.
Still not sure about anything, still very depressed sometimes, almost not drawing at all and writing some little things instead of great stories that would change the world,
but I promise, I'll be back to normal eventually, I just don't yet know when exactly.
Actually, it's just ridiculous how helpless I am and how much time it takes me to cope with things, but I guess I can't do much about that, although I myself am sick
Of life and lighthouses
So you might have noticed I've been kind of absent.
Actually, many times already I was going to type some sort of journal to say "I am fine now", but I didn't, because it isn't completely true.
To begin with, my life is OK now.
Nothing bad is happening to me, life just keeps going, so if you were worried for me, you don't need to (though I am grateful for this).
The main thing is that I am trying to come to terms with this new astonishing discovery that I might not become a writer. Or of course I may still be one, but there are no guarantees, and this is what surprises me most, since for the last two years or so deep inside I didn't have
So if you wanted to know what's wrong with me.
First of all, I want to say that luckily my problems are nothing of a real trouble. It's not about my/my family's health or something that serious, but still, it's something that makes me really sad, and I kind of want to talk about it.
This journal will be so full of feelings that it won't probably make much sence, though.
So, you may know that over the past two years or so I've been working on a huge fantasy story called "Strata".
And these two years were really crazy and great, full of struggle, hope, disappointment, hard work and everything. You know, when I used to finish my studies late at night and sit down to write another chapter
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All my best to you, dear. I hope the semester goes smoother than it is looking to be.